A few minutes ago I was lying in bed talking to Dan. He asked me if I was OK. My reply......NO, I'm really mad for some reason. I have no idea for what reason or at who, I just feel really mad and angry and the moment. He said, OK, I'll just roll over here and go to sleep and hope it's not me your mad at. Just for clarification, I am not mad at him. I am however feeling very angry. I don't think it's really at any one person or thing. I am just really tired of feeling this way. Life really is very good for us right now. I think the anger I feel is from feeling like there isn't really anywhere to be or even talk to that is not in some kind of conflict. I have, over the past year especially, worked very hard to have a positive outlook and try to be happy. I will admit that I'm not perfect at it, but I have really tried.
Here are a few good things, highlights if you will, that have happened over the past while.
I recently, on January 5th, passed my probation at work. An entire year (to the day) of 100% intense evaluation and review. This brings with it a promotion and a raise. It also, and most importantly, brings with it very good job security. This, is quite literally the best thing I could ask for, especially now. I still have a lot to learn, but the worst part is in the past and I can now focus on getting better and learning more. Sometimes working in a welfare office can be draining, sometimes I have to keep myself from walking away, but in the end, it's really a good job that has made me proud of myself for not only getting, but keeping and perfecting. It's never dull. There is always something going on.
Dan has been at his job at Solar City for 10 months. Even though I have a pretty good paying job, he has managed to out earn me by around a third. It has never been handed to him, he works A LOT, has earned every penny. More importantly, he has earned the respect and confidence from his employer and colleagues. Between the two of us, we are doing a pretty good job of taking care of ourselves and our family, and even be able to have a little fun every now and then. We were just talking earlier today that we are so close to having things in order and being able to plan and work towards a future. A feeling we are not used to, but happy to be having.
Kyler has been working at Solar City since July. He started as an installer and in November/December was moved to the warehouse. He has really done well at this job. He is making good money for a 21 year old and has made a decent impression. Dan was speaking to someone from the warehouse the other day who mentioned that he was the hardest worker in the place and they would recommend him to anyone if asked. This could be a real need as our legislature just passed a bill that made it so SC had to shut down all installations in Nevada so almost all the installers were laid off and the warehouse workers are being either laid off or transferred. It is looking like there is a real possibility that Kyler will be moving to Norwalk California with a transfer for his job. Things are still up in the air with this, we will see what happens hopefully soon. We are happy to see him finally succeeding with a job and liking it. He has made some good friends and connections there. Thus, one of the reasons he will likely transfer and didn't get laid off.
Megan is still at WinCo.She will be there a year on the 31st. She has struggled to have work hours enough to make her ends meet, but recently she has been getting more hours and responsibility at work. She has made many friends there and outside of work. We are proud that our kids are showing good work ethic and getting noticed for it. She is counted on a lot here at home. She is a huge help keeping the house together. With Dan and I both working full time and all day, she is a big help to make things go somewhat smoothly.
Aubree just turned 18 on December 15th. After finals this next week at school , she will only have to go half days at school. Her graduation is set for June 9th at the Thomas and Mack Center at UNLV. Anyone who would like to come is welcomed and she/we would love for her to have a nice support group here to see her. She has a boyfriend for almost a year now. He is really nice and really cares for her. She is currently looking for a job and finishing school. She is doing well.
Jake is finally not crazy busy for a bit. Football is over and marching band is only every now and then. They are in the MLK parade on the 18th, but other than that he actually gets to come home after school most days. He will be going on a trip to Santa Monica over Memorial Day where the marching band will be in the local parade there. He's pretty excited, last year it was football in San Diego and this year band in Santa Monica. He has made some good friends and is excelling in pretty much everything he does.
We have our 4 furry family members. They re all happy and healthy. Sometimes even a little ornery ;-)
See, we have a lot of happy things and good things happening for us. Not sure why I feel this way. I do think though that sometimes it's just simply because I can't understand how people in the world can be so mean and cruel to each other. I have never been comfortable in a contentious setting. It really bothers me. Unfortunately it is everywhere these days. You can't even turn on the news or anything without it. We watched a football game tonight and there were fights and all kinds of badness on there. I wish every day for some peace in the word. Not holding my breath...
I really feel that 2016 is going to be our year. It is already starting out far better than most have for us. Excited to see what's in store for us. Hopefully I will get over this overwhelming feeling of anger. Don't have time for that.
Happy New Year everyone....
~Christy
